Sometimes I wish my life was simple. I wish the biggest problems I had to face each day were those like whether or not I should go shopping at Mid Valley or One Utama or whether or not I should streak my hair blonde.

Unfortunately my problems are much bigger.

But it makes me wonder. If I didn't have these problems to face, would I be the person I am today? I don't think so. Recent events have proven that I have grown. That I am finally able to think with my head and not with my emotions. And although things are undoubtedly gonna change and possibly get worse, I know I can get through it. Because I have to.

I don't have simple problems or a simple life. But that's good because that means I am not a simple person. And I'm glad.

Stumbling, falling blindly
my way has been lost once more;
again I have chosen to do wrong
again I have hurt the ones most dear;
confused at who i am
angry at what i've become
disgusted that i haven't changed
bitter about my past;
I keep making the same mistakes
each time worse than the last
tell me when will i stop
tell me why i do what i do;
When will I do something good
something that will make me proud
something that will make me shine;
Pushed til I can't move anymore
tryin to make them all understand
but it's me who doesn't understand;
No more lies, no more manipulation
this is the last time
this is a new beginning.