Yes, I am a very bad blogger...well I'm back after more than a month of being totally MIA frm the blogging scene. I guess life has just been way too crappy, I really don't understand why when one bad thing happens...everything else just seems to go wrong. I know it might sound like I whine and complain alot, and maybe I am slightly cynical about life...but the last month or so really takes the cake for being a sucky time in my life and an even suckier way to end the suckiest year ever. I do not wish to tell everyone on this blog about what has been happening as it is pretty personal, but let's just say it involves alot of betrayal and falling apart of things. All the stuff that happened just probed me to wanna keep away from everyone and from everything, and find solace in my room spending hours doing nothing much at all. Maybe I just needed to be anti-social and find some perspective. I think I have come out of my self-imposed exile now though, and I have decided to quit moping around and fix whatever it is I can fix in my life, and leave the rest up to God or fate or whatever it is that controls the universe.

One of the less-personal crappy things that happened was my PC going bust. I have a main PC, which I share with my family, and my sis and I usually download our shows and stuff on there. We're complete TV-addicts, and we had episodes from at least 10 different series on that computer, some we haven't even gotten around to watching yet. Now they're all gone, including hundreds of songs and pictures and all my HELP documents from my previous semesters, because I was so stupid to take it for granted and not transfer all my important stuff to my laptop and the external hard drive. But it's okay. It's just material stuff, right? I have the tendency to keep and store useless stuff anyway, so it's good that it all got deleted. I'll just keep telling myself that.

The good thing that happened last month was Sashi coming back. It was only a month, but it was great, just having him around made all the other stuff I was going through so much easier. Don't know what I'll do without him. It's already going to be our 7-month anniversary, I can't believe it. I have never had a 1-yr anniversary in my life, for some reason they always end around the 10-month mark [I think I'm cursed] and I'm hoping to hit the 1-yr mark with Sashi.

It's a new year, which means new beginnings. And I have a feeling that this yr is going to be different that the others...I guess we'll just have to wait and see. I don't know if it's because I'm turning [oh my god] 20 this yr, but I do feel more mature and more focused, ready to tackle new challenges and not resort to stupid tactics and screw up so often like I did last year. I'm gonna be officially out of my teens! God that's just sad. But I'm a Gemini, which means I will always be a child at heart....

Before I end this post...I would just like to commemorate a friend I have known since I was in primary school, a person who was sweet, smart and kind. His name is Jason Soo Sing Hing, he passed away a week or so ago in a car accident. He will never be forgotten, and he will live on in our memories. He was a good friend, son and schoolmate to all who knew him. God bless your soul and may you rest in peace, Sing Hing.

Coming up in my next post...Movie reviews. See you'll then.