I hate days like today. Woke up feeling like crap, just wanted to stay in bed with the covers over my head and drown in my own misery. I don't know why, I don't really know what I'm so miserable about and I haven't felt like this in a long time but today I just feel so fucked up. I like to think I'm an opimistic person and I usually try to look at the brighter things in life but today it's like I'm looking at all the darker things that I've been pushing aside and ignoring and it's not pretty. While I still do feel like I'm a changed person and that I have been given a new lease on life, I'm wondering if I'm putting that lease to full use or I'm gonna end up the same way in the end, and if this cycle is never-ending. Sigh. Hope I snap out of this funk soon.

I'm not the kind of person who listens to every piece of shit that comes on the radio. Once in a while a good song will come my way and then I won't be able to stop playing it. Here's the latest one :

You'll Think of Me
by Keith Urban

I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK, there's nothing left to say, but

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me

I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been, so

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me
So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me.

P.S : Izzy, hope you don't think I'm copying you by putting up lyrics on my blog. Hehe.