I keep doing the same thing...over and over again. I keep trusting people. Am I too naive? Possibly. And once again, I get my back stabbed...I cause trouble for not just myself but for the ones I love. Why didn't I listen to you?? Gosh...I'm seriously stupid at times like this...But I really believed the person I trusted was a friend. I didn't think what I told in confidence would turn out like this. It wasn't just that it was told to people I didn't even know...but the story was twisted in a way that for the life of me, I can't believe how somebody could twist it like that. To make me seem like a totally different person to people I have never even met before. I don't care what people think of me normally. Especially people I don't know. I am used to people saying shit behind my back, and I always say, who cares. They don't know the real me. But for a friend to cause this is just unacceptable. I'm not just hurt, I'm in shock.

What has happened is just the icing to the very bad cake that my life has been lately. I take chances on people. I always try to see the good side of people even when I've heard things about them. I always give them the benefit of the doubt. And just see where that landed me. Got cheated on, got lied to, and now got betrayed. Fuck all this la. It's a new year and that means that there's gonna be new beginnings. Out with the old. It's time I grew up and stopped depending on and trusting other people. I'm not going to let this shit bring me down. I don't know who my friends are anymore and maybe that's for the best.